Wednesday, March 08, 2006

ive been extremely illdisciplined this year. ive not been studying. ive not been doiong homework. things like that. and at the wrong time too, this being my j2 year and the year i have my a levels. ive never felt so tired every single day coming to school until this year. all i do now is struggle to keep awake and try not to doze off during lessons. ive also been more ill this year, properly ill. this years just been going very wrong and i hope it doesnt continue this way and that the turning point will be common tests, although it is rather hard to see how that can be possible, with gp being tomorrow and me being at my unprepared best. ive just been playing maplestory for the past few hours and stoning in front of the computer wondering to myself 'what's next'. ive always believed we create our own future and the one im carving out right now seems to start with a bad common test and downhill from there.

oh and i watched brokeback ytd at last. it was crushingly beautiful. ive nothing else to say. sigh.
god spoke 1:17 AM